Updated: Feb 28, 2020
Rob and I dated for 3 years, sending multiple emails a day. I would race home and read his email. . .
once. . . twice. . . three times. . . (yeah, maybe more) before writing back. My heart would flutter and I then impatiently waited for my inbox to ding rejoicing with me that he replied!
I LOVED reading his letters. I loved feeling like I was sitting and talking with him. I loved hearing the love, pleasure, and joy he found in our relationship.
Even in the midst of a sweet, rich, and wonderful marriage I have struggled with. . .
“Who am I?”
“God. . . who am I?”
“God who have you made me to be?”
I am not the first nor will I be the last person to ask this question. This question is not a question of outward appearance or of value as a human. It is a question of purpose and place. Rob’s options have always seemed clear and unending, however, mine have felt limited and unclear.
“God where do I fit?” “God how do I fit?”
For 20 years Rob has spoken of love, encouragement, and pleasure to me.
But. . . place? And. . .purpose?
Where do I find place?
“Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God” John 1:12
“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him.” 1 John 3:1
“Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.” Rom 8:17
I have a place. I have a place as God’s child. My place is found in an intimate and personal relationship with God. He loves me as his child.
What is my purpose?
“You are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.” 1 Peter 2:9
“You have made them to be a kingdom and priests to serve our God, and they will reign on the earth.” Rev 5:10
I love opening God’s Word and communicating it in a way that inspires, encourages, and speaks hope to others. Deep in my heart is a passion to read, write and teach His Word. Leading others into His presences brings tears of joy and a deep sense of fulfillment. A sense of fulfillment I don’t find any other place then dwelling and walking with God in exactly who has made me and is calling me to find.
I am deeply thankful for a calling that encourages others to find love, joy, pleasure, place, and purpose in Him.
Who are you? What are you called to?