Updated: Oct 25, 2019
Over the last few weeks I have posted some really hard stuff.
Suicide is so tragic.
Processing the feeling left from suicide feels like an endless spiral of regret, hopelessness, and sadness.
But today . . . today I am thankful. Thankful beyond measure. And not just for me, but for others too.
My hope in posting is to give people a glimpse into mourning out loud.
We so often hide in our closets or photoshop the pain away. It is scary and hard to put real struggle out for everyone to read and critique. But you, friends and family, have been so kind and encouraging.
Together we are sharing with the world that it is ok to wrestle with hard stuff. It is ok to not have all the answers. It is ok that leaning into God isn’t always easy or pretty, sometimes it is mostly tears and snot.
But through it. . .
People, friends and family love you.
People want to know what is going on in your life.
People want to share encouraging words.
People want to pray for you.
People want to stand with you in the struggle.
God wants to stand with you in the struggle.
God loves you.
In the midst of such a traumatic loss, together we are creating a picture of love and relationship. Letting ourselves be loved in the midst of struggle is where we find authentic and intimate love the way God created it to be. The way we find it in and from him when we lean into him.
Thank you, family and friends. Thank you for your love, kindness and pursual of me. Thank you for showing the world love, compassion and relationship.